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ummmm i've recently started working and it's a blast but that's not the point. i was tasked to make a blog to bash hello kitty so i can generate traffic in sanriotown.com (believe me it's but reviewing videogames is part of the job so yay) ANYWAY, i'd like you to come visit
Good Apollo, I'm Burning Star IV, Volume II: No World For Tomorrow - Track Listing1. The Reaping2. No World for Tomorrow 3. The Hound (of Blood and Rank) 4. Feathers 5. The Running Free 6. Mother Superior 7. Gravemakers & Gunslingers 8. Justice in Murder The End Complete9. I -The Fall of House Atlantic 10. II - Radio Bye Bye 11. III - The End Complete 12. IV - The Road and the Damned 13. V - On the Brink Jesus, Mary and Joseph riding a tiny canoe!!! this is it! October 23, people. House Atlantic will FALL! Die Wilhelm Ryan! The Crowing shall exact vengeance and Mariah will rule the Mage! 1 comment | post a comment
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THIS is Terran superiority. THIS is proof that the Terrans will ultimately vanquish the innumerable Zerg and the laser-obsessed Protoss in Starcraft 2.
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Hugo Weaving IS the voice of Megatron.
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i was walking around katipunan earlier this evening. i didn't know where to go. no one was replying to my incessant pleadings to kick back and have a beer. you know who you are. and once again, the mind tends to drift and wonder and reflect and question. I've been studying (ergo, almost all of those my age) for around, give or take 15 years, (i started school when i was 2 and a half years old), and now, i've been yanked from the role i fill out as Ali Aslanbaigi that i've been portraying for the past 21 years. Now, i don't wake up to the routine anymore. the routine i've always bitched and ranted about, the routine i've always yearned to break away from. ironically (with a kind of masterful twist), i'm searching for that monotony. I search for it's predictability and stability. You wake up, yosi, breakfast, yosi, bath, yosi, go to school, yosi, study, flirt, laugh, yosi, beer, blueskies, home, simpsons, aquateen hunger force, seinfeld, sleep. It's simple. Throw in an occasional project or two and it's fine. I find myself longing for the safety of routine. I never thought i'd worry about where i should apply for. Ever since i was kid, all i wanted to do was write and play videogames. Oh and advertising and marketing (i can sell porn to the blind). that's it. i miss the promise and safety of routine.
I really am sorry for what I said to you the, but you must realize that I had to do that. It pains me, and I know that I definitely pains you but I believe it’s for the best. you know how when someone leaves, there is supposed to be a party where all your friends wish you off, laughs are shared and memories are relived. Well, this one, all it involves is words, and pain oh and cigarettes. i was so terrified earlier that i blanked out. i ran out of words to say, to "plead my case" so it seemed. well, the mind wandered uncontrollably as i walked from Mayrics to They say that you make other people want to change for the better. Am I just a name to you? Or am I just someone who didn’t matter to you? I may not always approve of what you’re doing but I always smile and say that at least I am trying my best to understand it. You are a paradox for I feel that the possibilities could be endless when we are talking, that the meaning goes a lot deeper than what we both actually think and yet, when you’re close you seem distant, even cold. Maybe that is the symbolism for your distance that all I can ever do is look at you from afar and all I can do is ogle and admire you from the other side of that gap. The roaring fire that we share is suddenly put out when we get closer. I am not like anyone you’ve ever met and I take pride in that. But does this special position I hold be my own downfall when it comes to you? I pray not. I try to understand you but the more I unravel your mysteries, more puzzles jump out of nowhere just to baffle and confuse me even more than when I started. A never ending enigma that I fear I will never understand. You told me that “great” is an understatement when I asked you if you had fun, that you were never bored. You even pulled out the word "soulmate" on me one time when you were at your lowest and i was there holding your hand during that tumultuous time. You pulled a dagger out of nowhere and you stabbed me with it and told me to understand, that the bleeding that you caused me is pardonable, even normal. I never understood and now this dagger lodged in me becomes a part of my system and only you can take it out. I’ve tried to burn the bridges so that I may forget but I’m also the one piecing them together hoping against all hope that you may cross it. Everywhere I go all I can see and think about is you. But I guess you never will cross that worn out bridge that I’ve tried ever so hard to rebuild. Call me pathetic. Call me romantic. Or call me a fool. I will also be by your side but I guess you will never, ever see that. I’ve come to know and love you but I fear that you never did the same to me. If you at least knew me well enough then maybe we could’ve shared more than just words. Reciprocation. I guess I’m on my own to reciprocate and we all know that it is impossible. This stalwart vigil may lead me to disaster but if this is what it needs to make you understand then so be it. If you won’t be there to catch me now that I’ve fallen, well, maybe then this is for the best and yet I’ve been falling for the longest of time. Catch me before I am so down this hole that you will never hear my voice. If you leave me for dead, then all I can do is say goodbye, right? I will never say goodbye but it is beyond doubt that you have waved your last goodbye and I, the fool, never saw it. I’m waiting for a ship that will never come. I have always been the good guy. But maybe what they say about good guys finishing last is true. But then again, I’ve always been known to go against the grain. I’ve tried so hard to fit your mold, your criteria. Maybe it’s a bit arrogant for me to think that I’ve never fit your mold because I’m too big for it. But then again, maybe I just never fit in. I never have. Or then again, maybe you’ve never even tried to fit me in that mold, that oh so precious paragon that I’ve been trying to emulate. Just that little nudge needed to make it fit, to make it feel right. I’ve given my all, more than I can ever give to anyone. I promise to keep your heart forever and would rather have mine viciously ripped out if it means keeping yours still warm and beating. I may be hard headed, even naïve, to think that I will wait. Time has always been this boy’s friend. So is it true that you make other people want to change for the better? Maybe so, but did you ever think that I never changed? Did it ever cross your mind that I’ve always been this way but then you never see it? All you see is a name and face. I’ve taken the wrong turn and now I’m in a one way highway to my implosion. That’s good. Maybe after I implode like a star maybe then will you notice me and see me for what I really am... or what I really was.
everything i've come to love, to believe in, to hope for... is lost... everything is fucking lost. as much as i'd like to paint a perfect picture of everything, i can't do it. it's impossible. i can't blame it on fate, i can't blame it on circumstance, all i can blame is myself. for being blind, for being naive, for being a dreamer. dreamers give the world a soul, while realists keep it alive. all is fucking lost so will i be alright? my feet sure aren't. you broke my heart twice and my eyes have no more tears to offer. ali is dead? for sure. implosion like a neutron star? guaranteed. i hope you read this. of all the times that you tell how many people hurt you, look back and try to see maybe you're the ones hurting someone else, someone "dear", someone who just smiles and sucks it in because he is a fucking doormat who can never say no to you. im the biggest raisin-balled pussy in the world. i set out to prove that good guys dont finish last. haha now naive. Ummm gago. *bow 8 comments | post a comment
i am the biggest pussy on earth
oh and good guys finish last.
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